Hey everyone! This is Jesse and I've been away for quiet some time at art school. My 3rd awesomely awesome year at CalARTs is coming to an end and I'm currently working on my own short animated film. I'll be posting up some new artwork soon, hoping it spreads the same inspiration that I get from looking at everyone's art from time to time. Cheers to good times!

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No, I'm afraid that this is not Jesse. This is his good and wonderful and awfully lovely girlfriend, Sam, who has officially coaxed him out of his deviant art password. Jesse has been far too busy as of late doing terrifically mundane things such as "studing" and "doing homework".
It's rather dull.
So I've taken the helm--with permission, too--to see if I may fulfull my life's mission.
To bother him.

He's attending a drab little community college this year to get all of those pesky 'critical studies' credits outta the way before heading back to CalArts for his THIRD YEAR. (He's old)
Every few months he heads down to Miami in a big old aeroplane to visit me and stays here until he escapes. He makes fantastic company, but is terribly bad at arm wrestling and chess. And he can't take punches very well, I should mention that. (He's really good at doing things like saving my butt when I'm about to smash into a tree while being stupid, though...)
However, don't eat muffins in front of him, or else he'll make fun of you. Relentlessly.

Also, he likes cars. He's thinking about splitting off from CalArts to study...car design at Art Center (he's even looking into how to prepare a portfolio), but he wants to stay at CalArts (I don't get it either). Animation is his life's calling, he claims, a statement to which I really have no snide comment.

He IS an exceptionally nice person, though, going out of his way to help people in whatever fashion he can figure. He may not be the most brilliant or most handsome or most skilled, but a better person you'll be hard-pressed to find.
He's the perfect guy to bother if you're in such a mood; if he can't cheer you up with his advice, then he'll do something cute like try to pick you up and spin you 'round and...well, laughter's just as good a remedy as any XD

And he's amazingly good at doing chores, both mine AND his.

Excert from a letter to a close wise man,

"Summer has treated me with oppurtunties of improvement and relaxation. Currently I am still at the second school I've attended during my senior year at BHS (Pasadena Center for Fine Arts) currently enrolled in nine classes ranging from classical oil painting to figure drawing and even touching at animal and head studies. Recently I have undergone my studies towards learning a third language, Japanese, and enjoying every moment I am reading in how to form sentences and speak the oriental phrases (currently still in my first week). Whenever I have had the spare time and energy it would be spent on working out at the YMCA and taking boxing on friday nights whenever possible, though I havn't done this too often. I still feel guilty though that I have not started the research aspect of my summer to develope my film, but little by little I am injecting it into my weekly things to do, of course the books I need to look at still sit untouched on top of my filing cabinet.


I do not know why but I feel a lot of regret for some poor decisions I have made in high school and also for not participating in what I should have participated in, Academic Decatholon more specifically. My soul feels distrubed that it cannot rest until it has pushed my already beaten body to the exhaust point which has failed on many unproductive nights. I cannot relax sometimes for fear of depression, yet for some reason that gives me the motivation to work longer and harder, although I still seem to have a lot of free time to spare occassionally. I feel as though I should push it further, yet something always holds me back from doing so. Someone is waiting for me at the end of this road...and I have every intention to reach to this person. Currently, my soul chases this person who, for no matter how much work I get in or improve, manages to pull away like a devil of some sort. At moments I feel as if I am going insane thinking about such a fictional character existing in the back of my mind, yet this female exists somewhere in time and space, so I continue to strive forward.

I've had a lil analogy playing a arcade game to kind of bring me to that thought. The game itself is called Maximum Midnight Tune, a highway racing game of addiction, yet as I drove around the highways with my car listening to a entrancing tune I noticed the beauty of the cityscape that lay before me. I gazed at its beauty as it glowed like an angel distracting me from the concentration of the race at its high speeds. This connects to my life in a way that I broke my concentration of my work to gaze at the wonders of life, from friends to going out on the town or trip to accepting awards. Yet without my knowing I get passed by another car while my concentration was broken, I step on the gas and hit the rest of the turns perfectly, but no matter how hard I tried it continues to pull away like some kind of devil. The same thing is happening with this character, no matter how much I develope she still pulls away further and further ahead without stopping. It feels akward speaking of a video game to a person relating to life, somehow though, I feel as if I am lagging behind of what I am really capiable of doing. My body, mind, and soul seem plauged by this character that I cannot help but feel as if I should work as hard as I can so that one day I can pass this being as I would pass that car in the fictional game.

For 4 days this summer, a few friends and myself took time off of what we were doing to attend a convention called Anime Expo 2005 held at Anaheim Convention Center. Surrounded by fellow anime freaks (people who really like Japanese animation) in costumes and shows / concerts by the hosts of the convention I have never felt more relaxed. Being alive at the Kotoko Concert (Japanese Pop) rising my cell phone in the air as a light stick and other people flowing so to ramen eating competitions after dealing with Anime dealers for merchandise to spending ten straight hours playing video games with a friend, I have never been so far away from soceity without worry of anything. For about one hundred dollars so many memories fill the safe of my mind yearning for the Anime Expo of the following year. In a few weeks my family plans to go to go to Italy and France on a 2-3 week vacation away from the United States...I am still unaware of the possible activites, but I am going with every intention of drawing and painting while hopefully visiting some art schools."

This is how my summer seems so far...I wonder how much I really need to do..how much to accomplish before I can ever see something as beautiful as heaven. *shrugs. I think I'm starting to go insane in one way or another. Need to find way to be more productive >.<;;; *hides in corner

About a week ago yesterday, I recieved my acceptance letter into the Character Animation Program over at CalARTS. Strange though I only felt a lil spark of joy in recieving such an amazing sheet of paper many people would kill over (or I least I think they would). As I continued my day I recieved so much happiness from my fellow peers as if it mattered to them as well upon hearing about my acceptance at such an early stage or just being accepted in general. Makes me wonder what drives them to that...I dunno. I see happiness coming out of them, but I cannot see joy come out of myself for their situations...maybe there is something wrong. What if I asked too much praise or something already by telling them about events...? Weird world....

Currently I am hoping my other CSSSA buddies: Laura Lee, Zar, and Seirra make it in (I know their portfolios are up against the rest of the competition) so I wish them the best of luck. It would feel great to hear them get excited about themselves getting accepted....this repetition of acceptances is really tripping my mind at this point. Aside from that I also wish Keika, Janet, and Yulie best of luck to getting into Art Center (I know you gals won't have a problem doing that yourselves).

As of now my body is now burned out this early into the new semester in terms of handling many things. I've finally dropped back into a healthy 6 class schdule for the next few weeks so that I can focus on scholarships in order to get some kind of deduction for paying for CalARTS. This is a significant cut back to my 12-class schdule routine. The more I contemplate the more I think if my drawing talent really did get to the CalARTS level...oh well time to practice more I guess.

For being competitive, I realized this far in life that I cannot master everything I want, there is a limit to it and I must always have to give up something in order to get better. Recently it has been the respect of the AP Art class in connection to my new Art abilities...I really just cannot articulate on such a matter in typing nor in words about this so gah. For now....just cut back on my competitives and lay back for a while...Profile must stay low with wording to a minimum....man this sucks, haha.

It just one of those days you wish you had a motivation to continue on...a day you wish you didn't stick you neck out that door and experience certain moments...

Motivation up...motivation down...do I sound emo or annoying yet...dunno... Time to look at life straight in the face and accept the new plateau up ahead.
"Come on life. Bring it on!"

Well I finished CSSSA/Innerspark and am finally home after about 20 minutes of driving and many depressing departures. I should really update my art due to changing styles all the time and well meh. I alreayd miss my friend from there and already feel the post-csssa depression wich should be gone in a few days. for those of you who don't know what CSSSA is, it is an art program during the summer that throws you into thep its of animation or which ever feild you want and exposes you into a variety of sytles and works, etc. The main thing I've come to enjoy is the fact that the life drawing teachers worked with me to control my line drawing so that now my stuff is clear. I'll post it up some time as soon as I get down to drawing with actual though. Now I must learn flash to make websites. ^_^